Kilian Lenox’s Coming Out Story

Hi everyone, I’m Kilian, I’m 24 and I’m a transgender boy. Before starting I would like to say that I am a person who has faced and is facing a path that has as its conclusion my happiness, that of seeing in the mirror that man I have always been but who before was only so in the soul.

Growing up I felt different, I knew I was born a woman. I felt bad, I was made fun of by everyone because I dressed as a man. I was discriminated against and laughed at and going to school every day was agony.

“I hated my body and every part of me”

I went to war with my mother because she didn’t understand me and didn’t accept me. The dysphoria increased more and more, I hated my body and every part of me. Many times, I lost myself falling into total depression, closing in on myself not finding the light, losing the will to live and this has compromised my health.

But something changed me, I couldn’t continue so I decided to take my life back. I had the strength to start over, I asked how I could change my body and I decided to take the long and painful transition path with a long but very satisfying timing for me – it helped me, it saved me.

On September 1st, I underwent a mastectomy, now I have a nice chest. I had a lot of dysphoria because of this. I never had the chance to swim in the sea in peace, I always wore a tank top with a band underneath that compressed me or in some cases I was too uncomfortable to take a bath, so I didn’t. 

I wanted the normality of taking off my shirt and taking a dip in the sea, feeling the water on my body, taking long bare-chested walks, sunbathing and having fun, but until now I’ve always seen it as a distant thing. 

Another thing that changed my life is the passion for sports that I have always had. I go to the gym every day and this has helped the muscles to develop better with hormone therapy. It has helped with my depression and accumulated stress; I have seen more and more changes in my body and the more I saw it change the better I was. The gym is my second home and without sports, I would be lost.

Now I will be doing my pit gym at home with the right equipment to train even harder and to achieve my personal goals. An important thing for me is to always eat well and in a healthy way, I am very constant in my diet even if it is very difficult, but the physical results depend above all on this. 

“Happiness is not found, it is up to us to create it”

I am happy because now my life is all uphill. I have a job, a house and I live with my girlfriend who supports me and supports me in my journey. Life will always put you in front of obstacles but if you always have the strength to get up the difficulties will never be so great. Happiness is not found, it is up to us to create it. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, this is my hand and I am offering it to you. This is a part of my life I hope will serve someone. Peace and love to all.

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