From a young age, I always felt slightly different than other girls I went to school with or hung out with. I always felt like I related more with my guy friends. I’d have boyfriends up until I was 19, just because I thought that was the normal thing to do. I didn’t have anyone I could talk to about my feelings & I didn’t really know much about the LGBTQ+ community.

A friend of mine from school had been out for a few years, I reached out to her for help & advice. Even though I’d had ‘boyfriends’ I was always attracted to girls but didn’t know that was a real thing or an option until I was introduced to the LGBTQ+ community.

I had my first girlfriend when I was 19, I kept it to myself for a good few months as I was nervous to tell my friends & family. A friend of mine offered to tell my mum as I was scared of her reaction, no one else in my family is gay. 

“It was an amazing feeling having my family behind me”

“even though I’d been out for a few years I still didn’t feel right”

For the last 4 years I have been considering top surgery. I don’t want to transition, I still like that I have my feminine days. But having breasts makes me feel uncomfortable. I would love the chance to have the surgery one day, I feel like that would be the icing on the cake for me. Having a more masculine chest & physical appearance is something that is a must for me. I use sports bras & binders to flatten my chest which can be painful at times.

Since coming out as non binary my confidence has rocketed, I am now seeing a girl who likes me for me. She accepts my He/Him, They/Them & She/Her days. She fills me with so much life & energy to be me, being with someone who loves me for who I really am is an incredible feeling.

“I have never been happier in my life than I am now”

It’s been a long & confusing 8 years, I know it’s going to keep being confusing for many years to come but now I understand myself more. I am able to help others & it’s truly an amazing feeling. I have never been happier in my life than I am now. I thank each & every person in my life for being there for me when I have needed them the most!